After completing the Whole30 for a third time, I thought I’d share my mixed review on the diet.

Our twins taught us a lot, but as their mother, Oliver and Dax taught me this important realization: being a mother is a twofold job. In essence, being a mother isn’t solely about mothering my offspring—I have to mother myself too. I have to remind myself to eat my vegetables. I have to remind myself that everything will be okay, no matter how hard it all seems. I have to remind myself to live in love, not fear, and to never take what matters most for granted.

Almost exactly a year ago from today, I became pregnant for the first time. I remember the day distinctly—the bright two lines, sharing the news with my closest people, and coming home to Michael and slow-dancing in our living room. It felt surreal, knowing I would become a mother and we would have our family.

The excitement and joy quickly turned into sadness, disappointment, grief, and pain when I went to the bathroom one day and my toilet paper was full of blood. Spotting is normal during early pregnancy I read through a frantic Google search. I clung to that hope—that this was normal—and tried to convince myself it would be okay. But the bleeding persisted more heavily, and I started to cramp.

During this time, it’s really easy to get caught up in the external world. Here are some tools I use to help ground myself to become more internally grounded so I can give my best self to the world.

If you’re like me (and many women) you’ve, at one point, struggled to find a healthy relationship with your body. Over the last few years, I’ve discovered a mindset shift that has changed EVERYTHING for the better. In this blog, I share the tools and practices I use to keep a lean body and healthy glow—without any food or exercise drama. This is not a fad. This is not a temporary fix. This is a sustainable, beautiful, loving, healthy lifestyle.